Yes, you know who you are. No, I'm not talking about public displays of attention or couples coupling, I don't care but I do mind the people who say things like, "I feel sorry for you because you're single on Valentine's Day". My question is do they always feel sorry for me because I am not in a relationship or is it only because I'm not with someone on Valentine's Day? More importantly why do they have to feel sorry for me?
I don't carry a grey cloud around me making couples feel miserable, I don't go into their happy little worlds of twos and say 'table for one' and rain on their parade. So please explain why you feel sorry for me?
Would it be nice to have a Valentine? Yes. Would it be nice to be appreciated by someone on a holiday dedicated to "love"? Sure. Am I going to settle? No. Have I become pickier? Maybe. This is a question I asked myself prior to Valentine's Day. Maybe I'm reading too much into this but my instincts are no unnecessarily wrong for a long time I have known a guy who I think has always found me attractive. I've always found him to be a nice guy who I have things in common with but to me its always been he's maybe the right guy but timing has never been right. Again Maybe is the key word in that sentence. After I spent sometime with him during my birthday I realized how not only am I not attracted to him but how there could never be anything between us and again it has a lot to do with timing. Perfectly legit guy, good morals, things in common, but something is missing. I don't feel those butterflies, I don't hear the music and therefore nothing inside me says pursue this person. Maybe a year ago when I wasn't used to being single I would have jumped all over this opportunity. I would have somehow managed to hear the dog whistles but I feel I can do better. I don't need to settle and perhaps I won't have a romantic dinner in a crowded restaurant. And perhaps I won't get a cheesy card or get mad because you don't remember my favorite flowers are tulips. Maybe there won't be any pressure on a random day in February. Perhaps for the first time ever February 14th is just another day on the calender or maybe I'd like to dub it Singles Appreciation Day. A day where singles don't have to worry about all the things someone in a relationship have to worry about. A day where I can still eat a whole box of chocolates and not feel guilty. More importantly a day where it doesn't matter if I'm in committed relationship or if I'm single as long as I'm happy and I'm staying of people who are trying to celebrate V-day on their own terms.
Oh St. Valentine! You have taught me yet another lesson in love.
