I want to share my new philosophy.
I'm going through stuff in my life. My Ex-boyfriend broke up with me while internship, I had to flee my apartment and live with a fun crazy. I got an account on match.com. I've gone on dates, made new friends, and started to reanalyze things. To sum things up, I've changed.
I don't think things are as important as people make them to be. Things happen for a reason and life might have a purpose or maybe we just are someones pawns and we never find out why we go through all these crazy challenges. I like to think there's a purpose to why I had to be dumped and treated the way I was treated and that in the long run this will all make sense and its all part of the "plan". I'm a true believer in the plan and because I'm such a believer in this plan I have hundreds of stories that relate with insufferable parts of life. Like being laid off, dumped, moving, changing schools, changing friends, and any life altering events. I sometimes sound condescending and no, I don't know everything but I hope sometimes my stories give people insight or guidance. Sometimes my stories make sense and have purpose and sometimes they're just whimsical and can make you laugh because you know someone has it worse than you. I read this self-help book after I got broken up with.
Yeah, the textbook learner read a self-help book to get over her break-up. I know pathetic, I know. Anyway the book wasn't like this great realization of things I didn't know but more like Hey, Retard! You are not in the same boat as the crazies in this book. Yeah, you're a little messed up but things will get better, chin up and smile.
Its easier to be the pessimist and sit around and sulk. Its easy to be the downer and not care about anyone but yourself. Its also easier to just go home and cry and mope and not do anything but I realized, that's not me.
When the first guy I ever liked dumped me, I fixed stuff. I got my "shit together", yes, its hard to do sometimes but you have to move on, even when you don't want to. Yeah, I've done things I'm not proud of and stuff I have learned from. I've learned I can't trust anyone but myself and I've had to grow up in the last few years and set boundaries. I'm not afraid to let people in because even if you are scared you can learn something from them. There's always something you can learn from someone new.
I'm the girl that falls for someone too quickly. I'm the girl that gives everyone a chance with red flags and all. I'm the girl who sees past the bitter and even crazy and sees a person trying really hard to get stuff together. I see all this because I am that person too. I love a new challenge. Yes, I'm complicated but so is everyone.
Things change, people change and things happen for a reason. There is a plan and sometimes it doesn't unravel like you want it but there is a plan. But at the end you realize that is part of the plan and you go with it and sometimes you have to just chin-up and smile and roll with it.
I'm going through stuff in my life. My Ex-boyfriend broke up with me while internship, I had to flee my apartment and live with a fun crazy. I got an account on match.com. I've gone on dates, made new friends, and started to reanalyze things. To sum things up, I've changed.
I don't think things are as important as people make them to be. Things happen for a reason and life might have a purpose or maybe we just are someones pawns and we never find out why we go through all these crazy challenges. I like to think there's a purpose to why I had to be dumped and treated the way I was treated and that in the long run this will all make sense and its all part of the "plan". I'm a true believer in the plan and because I'm such a believer in this plan I have hundreds of stories that relate with insufferable parts of life. Like being laid off, dumped, moving, changing schools, changing friends, and any life altering events. I sometimes sound condescending and no, I don't know everything but I hope sometimes my stories give people insight or guidance. Sometimes my stories make sense and have purpose and sometimes they're just whimsical and can make you laugh because you know someone has it worse than you. I read this self-help book after I got broken up with.
Yeah, the textbook learner read a self-help book to get over her break-up. I know pathetic, I know. Anyway the book wasn't like this great realization of things I didn't know but more like Hey, Retard! You are not in the same boat as the crazies in this book. Yeah, you're a little messed up but things will get better, chin up and smile.
Its easier to be the pessimist and sit around and sulk. Its easy to be the downer and not care about anyone but yourself. Its also easier to just go home and cry and mope and not do anything but I realized, that's not me.
When the first guy I ever liked dumped me, I fixed stuff. I got my "shit together", yes, its hard to do sometimes but you have to move on, even when you don't want to. Yeah, I've done things I'm not proud of and stuff I have learned from. I've learned I can't trust anyone but myself and I've had to grow up in the last few years and set boundaries. I'm not afraid to let people in because even if you are scared you can learn something from them. There's always something you can learn from someone new.
I'm the girl that falls for someone too quickly. I'm the girl that gives everyone a chance with red flags and all. I'm the girl who sees past the bitter and even crazy and sees a person trying really hard to get stuff together. I see all this because I am that person too. I love a new challenge. Yes, I'm complicated but so is everyone.
Things change, people change and things happen for a reason. There is a plan and sometimes it doesn't unravel like you want it but there is a plan. But at the end you realize that is part of the plan and you go with it and sometimes you have to just chin-up and smile and roll with it.
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