The Dating Games

I started reading some old posts to get some inspiration for some new ones. The 2 favorites have always been Single and Looking...Just Single and Welcome To The Dark Side. I have often found these to be my security blankets of this blog. They speak volumes of what I've been through in the last several years without sounding like an overplayed record. Yes, drunk debauchery and lots of single dates that went nowhere. I still write about the same things which brings me to the conclusion that perhaps I haven't changed very much in the last few years and I am stuck in this rut because I refuse to change. I continue to face the situations much like a crazy person trying the same thing time and time again expecting different results. The girl who wrote those two posts was very clear, concise and optimistic.
In Single and Looking..Just Single, I write about not finding Prince Charming because he probably wears too much cologne but maybe I should be thinking about how I need to be less pushy, less available and more willing to date outside my normal "type" which is obviously not Prince Charming because I've never really been into clean cut types but more artistic fellows, someone rough around the edges who I can clean up if the time is right, and what is this DIY project fascination with guys, at this point I should be installing window treatments, not fixing a guys. This is the reason I am perhaps single and another thing I keep dating these guys who are completely unavailable and I don't mean they're married but they're emotionally unavailable. I keep dating guys who I assume one day will wake up and say "Oh, I am ready to be in a committed relationship" instead of dating guys who are already there. There are guys out there that think, "Hey, I really want a girlfriend." Those are the guys I should be dating, those are the guys, I should be seeking but no, of course not I like the ones that are the "challenge" and that's just the reason I am still here writing this blog and sitting at home shaking my fist at the world (couples, mainly). Have I become a little cynical? Yes. Everyday that passes and get closer to being a spinster, do I get a little sad? Yes. Will I give up on my quest to find the guy who finds this and I mean all of this attractive and doesn't go running for the hills? Probably not but for now I am glad I don't believe I am in self-sabotage mode. I know I probably have a few more years of heartache and maybe then I'll throw in the towel and go into spinsterhood but until then let the dating games begin, and may the odds be in my favor (damn,statistics).

An update on my 30 challenge is upon us.

30 days.

 Well, I know you guys are used to reading my rants about relationships, how hard they are, how I've overcome them, and the losers I've dated briefly. Don't worry this will be in here too but for now, I want to challenge myself in a different way. I want to change my appearance from the inside out.

Goal

I will be reading a book a week, running at least a mile a day, perhaps doing a physical activity (roller blading, rock climbing, segway, dancing, etc.), and of course cutting all junk food and carbonated beverages yes, this includes beer. So for the 4 weeks, I will tell you exactly what I have read, done, perhaps even eaten. Every few days I will post something which has either proven to be a challenge or something I have learned basically I will be creating a live journal through the next 30 days.

About Myself

 If you know anything about me is how much I hate to exercise and how much I love to eat, so that in itself will prove challenging. Why are you doing this?The answer is simple: now, I feel is the time to focus on me. I have focused a lot of attention on other people over the years. I also think it might make me overcome some of my self doubt and make me feel more confidant.

Readers/Followers if you would...

If you guys want to help me in the next 30 days please be sure to post comments and if you have any ideas of great healthy meals, activities, or books I should be reading please make sure to comment. Without you this will be a greater challenge, you guys are the reason I continue to do this. 

Thank you everyone and happy reading.