You're So Vain..I Betcha Think This Blog Is About You, Don't You?

Yesterday, I started writing a post about closure. It was how you get to that essential moment of clarity and conformity and you just live or coexist brilliantly with an ex. My prime example was how I have this on going friendship with my ex-boyfriend Carlos. I'm sure there is a lot of people that hate him and there are days I hate him myself but then I realize we're not in a relationship anymore and when I need advice he's always there. He's a great shoulder to cry on and when it comes to friendships I really appreciate him always being there. He could really call it quits and I wouldn't be offended since we haven't seen each other in years. There are others that at this moment, I would love nothing more for them to fall off the face of the Earth. Yes, you know who you are. There are more of these characters on my list everyday.

I give a lot of personal references in these posts. Yes, I do write about some stuff that I am ashamed of doing and perhaps things that I shouldn't say aloud but I do it anyway. My mom said to me when she found that I was writing a blog that, "to write about oneself is to be able to undress your soul". I agree some of the stuff I say in my blog does hurt. I reread some of my posts and most of the time I laugh at myself, other times I say "jeez, what the hell was I thinking?" and most of the time it gives me a great sense that I can share these things when most people would never have the audacity to do this. I share things because like I said this is my outlet and if you don't like the things being said in this blog, don't read it. I'm not writing this blog for any of my ex boyfriends. If you are reading this and you did date me now you know how I feel. I think if you dated me you should have known how I felt then but if you didn't well here it is. I've gotten a lot of comments on my blog I guess some people hate it, others love it and some people find it helpful. I, on the other hand, find it to be something I enjoy doing and I will continue to post personal anecdotes. As painful these things are to write about sometimes I find it the only person that can actually be ashamed or embarrassed is me and as of right now I have nothing that I am ashamed about.
I guess this is what closure is all about.