Single and Looking...Just Single.

10 minutes. I just need 10 minutes to compose something obvious. So when I started this blog over a year ago I had just gotten dumped by my then boyfriend Matt and started compulsively dating to get over him which I think I did brilliantly but a year has passed. Well a good year plus has passed. In that year I have gotten through several typical and not typical types of relationships. I've also gone through a full on transformation of myself. I went through denial and phase of really bad drinking but now its easy to describe my break up without falling apart. Its comical in a sense as I take it with a grain of salt. So when people ask me what happen I simply say this "I went on internship, I had a boyfriend, I came back from internship 3 months later, he had a new girlfriend. I moved out, end of story." Yes, there is a lot more than that, I guess me being a possessive overly pushy bitch doesn't help any relationship but whatever. I am a little less pushy than before or so I think. I still have room for improvement and I guess that's what you learn by being single but being single comes with a lot compromises. I guess being alone doesn't work for anyone but that guy that wrote Walden but I am not that in tune with nature so I guess I need to have the constant attention of a real piece of work kind of guy. Most of the guys I've dated have some deep issues and I'd rather not get into the Psyche of these types because its actually kind of depressing as they attract a very specific and kinda in her own way, fucked up kind of girl (me). But in less depressing news here it is: I like being single! Wow! I never in a million years thought I'd get to that conclusion no I am not that guy that says I am an island and stand alone, fuck no. I'm a girl that's not looking to find the right guy. I'd rather not look for prince charming he's not out there and if he is he probably wears too much cologne and hair gel. I'd rather say that I'm looking to live a happy existence as to where I am in life right now. I might be alone but I'm not really. Finally, finding some peace oh and more importantly laughter in every outrageous situation. So, I got dumped for a girl with big boobs. Had a guy who I thought was perfect leave me just to get away. Dated a bunch of strangers. Have had more than a handful of awkward encounters with people I dated briefly because I confused looks with a connection. Looked for love in the wrong places and now I'm here. Conclusion aw..I'm no longer Single and Looking...I'm just Single and Happy.