Best Friend

I think the single thing that drives me the most crazy when my best friend is crying her eyes out telling me that "its over" between her and the asshole her that dumped her, is hearing the next few words being uttered, "but he was my best friend". Yeah, that stings like salt in wound and at that point I turn from sympathetic best friend to very apathetic girl that is watching you cry your eyes out. So in a way of course we want to ideally date our best friend. We want to be friends with a guy and one day realize "Wow! I had never noticed you before, when did you ever get to be so handsome?" Although it has happened to many, most of the time we go into friendships with a bit of optimism that this might one day be an option. Its like in When Harry met Sally, Harry points out guys and girls can't be friends because there is always a sexual tension between them and while I disagree with this statement, I have been one of those girls that started a friendship with a guy (yes, just a friendship) and ended up dating him. Yes, I was also balling my eyes out and saying "but he's suppose to be my best friend".

I guess its been awhile since I've had my heart broken, not that I want to remember how that feels but I do know that during this time you are grasping on to anything. You are so utterly destroyed all you want is perhaps that initial feeling that had nothing to do with your relationship but more with the start the friendship. Perhaps, in your moment of complete confusion you are only focusing on the great parts of the relationship, how it all came to be and its only natural to start at the beginning. I know for every failed relationship I've ever had I can't really remember the in between part but the beginning and the end are picture clear. I can remember first dates, first kiss, even the first time I heard the words "I love you". I remember how things were right when I wasn't dating, the person who I was, what I wanted at that particular moment in my life, perhaps even the band that was playing repeatedly on my iPod. And because I am fond of writing this blog I remember every intricate detail of the dissolution of the relationship, the fights leading up to it, the distance, and of course dealing with the heartache afterwards. I don't regret much but I do regret calling this person my best friend when I know that if any of my friends broke my heart time and time again I would not call them my best friend. I would never be friends with someone who lies to me or cheats but I am willing to be friends with this person if I was in a relationship with them, why?

I hope one day I don't meet prince charming or someone who sweeps me off my feet. I'd much rather hope for one day for my best friend to meet the guy who will be my partner in crime, life and for her to say "Ah, you've met your match".

As for you Missy crying your eyes out calling out for your best friend, stop your crying your friend is the one giving you the tissue and thinking of 20 ways of how to kill the person who made you feel this way.